endure

i've learnt alot the past two weeks. i'm not afraid to say that i've changed for the better and appreciate the things that are around me which i take for granted most of the time.

sometimes when the food in camp gets so bad, in my opinion that is, all of a sudden the asam pedas that my mum cooks and that i hate so much tastes so nice in my mind. at times when my parents come home from work, i don't even bother acknowledging them. over there, when their presence are suddenly lost, i just feel a big part of me missing. to sum it all, all the tiny things that you take for granted become so significant in your life; especially hot showers.

mentally, i'm stronger now. you'll never know your fullest potential and limit until you join the army. that's because everytime you think you've reached your maximum, they push and encourage you to do more. if your arms are aching, that's only the start. only when it aches so bad that it hurts when you move it, that's your max. everyday is the same old routine. you wake up thinking how to survive the day. although some elements of the training can get very tough, at the end of it all, you know it's for your own good.

till then, your recruit badly needs sleep. good night.